On most mornings, I wake up and before I can even properly greet the day, my mind is hard at work creating my to-do list so that I can start knocking things out, being productive, and tricking myself into thinking that I am enough. Within a few minutes, I have a mountain of tasks weighing heavy on me like a ton of bricks. I am overwhelmed, I am exhausted, I know there’s no way in hell I will ever get it all done. Because here’s the thing, our to-do lists are never-ending, amirite? We’ve all got things to do for our work, for our kids, for our partners, and for ourselves. Yep, we come last 99% of the time.
In the past year, as I have been recovering from what we’ll call Crissy’s Mental Breakdown of 2017, I started to approach my day a bit differently. I decided that I had finally had enough with the anxiety I was experiencing within the first 3 seconds upon waking and decided to mix it the hell up. I was done with all that nonsense and started re-training my ego-driven mind to create a simple focus more on the human I wanted to be each and every day, rather than the things I felt I had to do. Rather than creating a list of obligations, I shifted to setting my intentions on the states of my existence.
It was simple, really. As soon as I noticed my brain starting to pile on the to-dos, I cleared my mind and visualized the three states of being I felt would serve me best on that particular day. If I knew I was taking a day off, my list might look something like this:
1. Be content
2. Be relaxed
3. Be creative
If I knew I had a literal crap-ton on my work plate, my list my change a little to look something like this:
Once I got into the habit of using the first few moments of my day to think about the human I wanted to BE, I was able to take my practice to the next level and I would go through the actions of my day with a mental machete and cut away all the tasks that didn’t serve the way I wanted to exist. I do this because we’re called human beings for a reason. We’re meant to explore how we exist in this life…we weren’t put here to see who could get their to-dos done faster than the next person.
Cheers to being the best humans we can BE.