My story of overcoming addiction and self harm

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My name is Danielle. I am 25 years old and live in Ottawa Ontario.

I have struggled with depression, anxiety, bipolar, PTSD, and insomnia along with addiction issues. I was first diagnosed with my mental health diagnosis’s when I was in my teens. I was struggling with self harm behaviours and using drugs/alcohol and smoking cigarettes. This is my story of overcoming addiction and self harm.

I was placed into the hospital for my issues by my parents. I didn’t take it as seriously as I should have and I remember not going to many of the outpatient services provided to me by my health care professionals. I was either “high” in a manic state, or I was very “low” in a depressive state. I wasn’t sleeping for days on end. I was self harming and I hated myself. I finally got some help when I started seeing a psychiatrist and seemed counselling & outpatient support over time. I tried though unfortunately many, many times to take my own life via overdoses and trying to drown myself in a bathtub. My parents, friends and family did their best to help me. I was just trying to survive and going through the motions.

My epiphany was when I was living in North Bay in 2016 with an extremely abusive partner. We will name him “Joe”. He was physically and mentally/emotionally abusive towards me. I was homeless, doing drugs, using weed and smoking cigarettes. I got into some women’s shelters and I ended up leaving him & charging him with stalking me basically.

I got back to Barrie Ontario around August 2016. I became sober and clean from everything including cigarettes on August, 11 2016. The same day my niece was born last year. ❤️

My family and true friends were the ones who helped me the most besides medical professionals like counsellors, therapists and psychiatrists. I became stable, seeker recovery from everything I’ve been through. My last time self harming was a bit before August 11 2016. But on that day everything changed and I really woke up to how I was destroying my life, not only for myself but for others as well who loved me so dearly. I went to NA & AA meetings in Barrie. I got a sponsor. In April of 2017 I moved in with my (current) boyfriend. My life changed for the better. I am now considering going back to school. I never thought that I would get this far dealing with the hand that I have been dealt, but I have.

Thank you for listening to my story and for learning how I overcame addiction, an abusive relationship, self harm and mental health diagnosis’s. ❤️

I hope you Stay.

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