Rose-In-Progress

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My life has always been defined by pain and loss. I experienced traumatic physical and sexual abuse at a very young age; after my mom’s death I went to live with my bio dad, who had a long history of abusing others. And as long as I can remember, death has been an intimate companion in one form or another. I’ve lost so many close friends and family members – as early as 7 years old – that I’ve developed a lot of anxieties around getting close to others, or letting others get close to me. There isn’t a decade of my life I haven’t lost at least 1-2 loved ones.

The loss that almost broke me was my son. In 2014, after only 3 months of aggressive treatment, my Joe succumbed to his battle with cancer. I got pretty close to the brink of insanity; for close to 2 years I fought against depression and suicidal ideation. First thing that saved my life was yoga.
I’ve always been a very active person but there wasn’t much I could do daily as I sat by his hospital bed. Doing yoga made me feel calmer, and satisfied the need to DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING, since I couldn’t fix him. Once I started yoga, I immediately found meditation. Somehow, it just came about organically for me, but I’m so grateful. The combination of yoga and meditation has given me so much serenity and inner peace. I felt an actual shift in my energy this past year…

I’m more focused, less sad. I’ve started thinking about the future again. I sought out kindred souls, and I came across Only Human on IG. The positive vibes I felt looking at the pictures and reading the stories drew me in so intensely! I need to learn more about this movement. At 53, I’ve gotten to a point in my life that I only want to surround myself with good humans (and my two fur babies lol). It’s so easy to get caught up in today’s negativity, but I’d rather choose happiness.

 

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