The smile that lit up the room

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It was a normal day at work. Seeing patients and helping them with their pain. Then it all changed in one text. One small text. “Jordyn killed herself” is all it said. 3 words that changed my life forever.

Heart in my stomach and my mind rushing, I finished my shift. As soon as I got in my car I called my girlfriend. “Jordyn is dead!” I screamed. I didn’t know what to do. I hurt so much. So many emotions came over me. Sad, confused, hurt etc. Jordyn always seemed so happy! Why? Why would she do this? We had plans in a few month! How? Why? I just didn’t get it.

She decided not to stay on the 10th of September, 2017. She thought her story was over. She was hurting and felt like no one would understand. She disguised how she was feeling with humor. Jordyn was the light in so many people’s lives including mine. She was the person you could always count on for a random adventure, great advice and just an ear to listen. Her favorite color was yellow, Griz was her president, and her smile lit up the room like no other. She was loved by so many. She is still loved by so many.

She was the first person I knew who decided not to stay. I had no idea how to take it. It wasn’t like the other deaths I have dealt with, the ones that had medical reasons. It was almost a different kind of hurt. It was so confusing. I still am confused and hurt. I unfortunately was unable to say goodbye at her funeral, but I did make a promise to her. I promised to live my life to the fullest and to always show love and spread love to everyone I meet.

 

Story submitted by Taylor