When I was in junior high I realized I was gay. Living in a small southern town I didn’t tell anyone. In high school I attached myself to a guy, because here you don’t go to high school for an education you go to find your soul mate. I didn’t. But I told everyone I did. Seven years later we got married. From the beginning it was awful! Our families hated each other. We hated each other. We had 2 beautiful kids. I was severely depressed. I hated myself, my life… My self worth was questioned daily and our fighting kept getting worse. I began seeing other people to make myself feel better. I hurt a lot of people along the way. Until I met my now wife. In the beginning it was just to have fun and make myself feel wanted (I was a horrible, selfish person). Then I fell in actual love. Something I had never felt before! I came out to my then husband first. I told him everything and I moved out. Then I came out to my parents, who weren’t exactly happy, but still loved me. My mother thought it was a phase. Then I came out to my aunt who said she had known for years.
My wife and I have been married for almost 3 years now and I wouldn’t have it any other way! My road to get to where I am was tough. I hurt lots of people and could have lost a lot more. I made lots of mistakes along the way, but I’m here. And I’m happy.
There is hope when you think there isn’t. Don’t ever pretend to be something or someone you’re not…You’ll end up in places you don’t belong, hating a life you made trying to make everyone else happy. Choose you and choose your happiness!