For years I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression, I’ve tried everything I could to forget the pain I was in. I’ve self-harmed, drank, took pills, anything to just escape everything I was feeling in my head. I’ve been clean from this for 8 years now. I’ve been trying to find positive things to fill those negative spaces in my life. Here recently this darkness has taken over my life again, I have no desire to get out of bed, when I close my eyes at night, I imagine ways that I could just end all this pain for the last time. No-one really knows how bad I’ve been struggling.
I don’t want to burden anyone else with my problems, so I just keep them in. I’ve been through so much stuff that I’ve never really dealt with, I just put it in the back of my mind, and hope one day I’ll be able to forget about it. I’m not a VICTIM anymore, I’m a SURVIVOR. “It maybe storming now, but storms don’t last forever”. Everyday I will continue to fight for the happiness I deserve, I will not let this be my ending.
Story Submitted by Lauren