Vulnerable Confession #5

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✖️Vulnerability Challenge Day 5✖️
Letting someone close enough to hurt you. Letting someone close enough to help you. Letting someone close enough to love you means letting them close enough to destroy you.

I’m lucky enough to be surrounded by so much love in my life, but with love comes some of our biggest vulnerabilities. To love is to crack yourself open and show someone else the dark corners. It’s unlocking that cabinet you swore you’d never look in again. We all want to live in that fairytale where only monumental things happen, but let’s get real, life is no fairytale. Love isn’t like the movies. You have to learn to share the moments of extreme joy, and extreme pain.

I’ve been the girl to dive headfirst into relationships (Aries through and through). I’ve also been the girl who has hurt others deeply because of my inability to express exactly how I feel about you—even when it’s something you don’t want to really hear. I’ve worked so hard in the last year to remain open, but as much as I don’t want to admit this, I haven’t been. I keep people at arm’s length for the fear of feeling heartbreak. I don’t let people help me very often. I’m hard headed and stubborn. I’ve known what being destroyed by love feels like and for the last 6 years, I think that even when I said I love you, I didn’t mean it the same because I only ever let them into the lobby.

Well, turns out my intention to Explore New Worlds in 2018 also means exploring new worlds within others, and within my own heart. I’m learning how to love deeper and open myself up to accepting love in return. So here is to laying yourself on the line, and hoping they’ll lay down beside you.
♥️ @breepear

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